Yup, it’s me and I’m still here.
No, I didn’t become an overnight success or win the lottery, sometimes a person just needs to press that reset button and take some time to do whatever it is you need to do. After all, in the end, the internet is going nowhere, my blog is going nowhere and truth be told it would probably be me who ends up going somewhere if I don’t take care of the important stuff first which is myself.
So now that the seasonal change is over and I’ve shredded my summer skin for the vibrations that is winter here in South Africa I can get back to some sort of normality and start putting the pieces of my work life back together.
As much as chaos was my company the past few weeks, for now, he has moved on, and I wait till he returns again unannounced and without warning. He never comes alone, he brings plenty of friends along with him like anxiety, fears and certain perceptions formed on nothing but a whisper. I am never ready for his visits, it’s not a test I can prepare for or something I can practice. If you lost me at this point it is fine, we don’t need to always understand everything for it to make sense.
I have lots to keep myself busy with during this rebuilding phase as I always call it and that might mean a little less blogging and more writing to get done what I need to. Its a mystery even to me at this point where the road will take me.
So till I write again, thanks to those who asked concerning questions and if I did not answer you, accept my sincerest apology because when the boats a sinking there is no time for anything else but swimming.
You guys rock,